2007

Two thousand and seven has been the worst year out of the 21 years I have lived on this earth. I made the decision to move to Edgewood late 2006, a decision I have since then greatly regretted. I had all my belongings stored at Gabe's dads garage. Gabe and I went to San Antonio to bring the new year in with a bang and instead we received a phone call letting us know that the garage had burnt down. All my belongings were gone. It was a devastating way to start 2007. Still making plans to move I packed what little I had left and headed to New Mexico. Arriving at Edgewood, 28 miles outside of Albuquerque, the Air Force let us know that Jake, Amber's husband, will NOT be deployed to Afghanistan. Now, having lost everything in the fire, being in the middle of nowhere, where I was not needed. I made the choice to stay anyways. I felt the need to get a pet so I got two ducks. Perkin Ducks. Really adorable, Peak and Boo. A while after I started to notice Boo was having a hard time getting around. Long story short Boo is handicapped. After a couple of months I started to look for a job outside of the Nanny world. I found a job at a Residential Treatment Center called Villa Santa Maria. A place for kids who have had a difficult childhood and therefore suffer from attachment issues. I liked it from the start and being in New Mexico grew on me. After another month or so circumstances changed and I had to move out on my own. Not really knowing if I wanted to stay or leave New Mexico, I made the choice to stay, really liking my job - that made an influence on my decision. I got a place of my own with a three month lease planning on finishing up the summer at VSM. I had some great friends and I was getting some what of a social life up here. It was growing on me. I had establishing a life. During this whole time Gabe and I have been flying to Texas and New Mexico to spend some time together.

On June 27 Gabe flew up and surprised me, we took a drive up the mountains after dinner, it was sunset and after watching the city disappear Gabe asked me to be his wife for all time and eternity. I said yes. It was amazing. I was so happy! This is the time I now looked to the bright side.

We made the choice for me to continue to stay in New Mexico and finish up as planned. Then after a week or so 2007 returned to being 2007. Things at work started to turn sour. Friends weren't really friends and before I knew it, I was without a job. So now here I am. Life in the pits. In the middle of nowhere, without a job, without my fiance, without my family, in a little apartment, with Boo, my little re re duck.